Let me just start off by saying- who the f*ck let me like someone again??
LIKE REALLY (honestly, when I like someone, I get so clingy and annoying, ugh). It gets to the point where I even want to tell myself to shut up.
You know, it’s not like I woke up one day and decided I was going to catch feelings. Because if that was the case, I would of run so far away from it. Anything relatively close to “love” scares me. You think I want to get my heart broken?
HELL to the NO.
All y’all hopeless romantics out there will tell me I’m being too cautious. You’ll say: oh, just go with the flow, don’t be afraid to fall in love.
Well. I call bullshit.
You know what love gets you?
A tad bit of happiness, and a whole lot of sadness when it ends.
I’m not being bitter.
(okay… maybe just a tad bit)
I was in a relationship for close to 3 years. It was great. Sucky at times, but overall a great experience. I learned so much from that relationship, but eventually I needed to call it quits.
I had this urge to find myself, alone. I did not want to be tied down to anyone when I was going through this whole “revamping” of myself.
I wanted to find out my niche, my likes, my dislikes, my hopes and dreams.
I’m thankful that I have had the opportunity to grow and experience life alone. At this point, I’ve been single for close to a year. My ex and I are on good terms. I wish him the best, and I will appreciate him forever.
Although, a month or two ago I would’ve claimed that we would be getting back together.
But, then the unexpected happened.
I met her.
I met the most genuine, thoughtful, beautiful human.
I didn’t even know someone could be so caring.
I hate myself for already liking her so much.
Its barely been two weeks, and I find myself thinking about her every chance I get.
Like… who am I?
Who is this girl smiling in the corner of a coffee shop, writing a freaking blog post about this amazing girl she only recently met?
Oh hey, that would be me.
Who am I becoming?
I’m so drawn to her. Everything about her. Her smile, her laugh, her f*cking gorgeous ass eyes.
Don’t even get me started on her style. (which is 100% great btw- if you can dress well, I’m automatically more interested)
Her presence just lights up a room. She has this positive energy that just radiates, and I can’t help but love that about her.
I hope this leads to something good.
I am not sure what the future holds. I am not even sure if she will be in it, but I do hope she is.
Whether she is my lover or a friend, I hope to have her positivity in my life.
This is a whole new chapter in the life of Kelsey.
All I have to say is, move over y’all This girl has me whooped.